Name: Justin S.
You'll find many different things on this blog. Video games, tattoos, piercings, women of all kinds of beauty (NSFW mostly ;) ), comics, music (you'll see a lot of metal and Metallica :) ), TMNT (I am sort of obsessed with them), art mostly of the 3D world with digital stuff too and well whatever I feel like reblogging I guess. If you dig it, awesome. If not, oh well. Can't please em all.
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Everyday is a struggle. I can’t even clear my head enough to think about what I want to do with myself and my life.
It’s like this invisible force is constantly pushing me down and pulling me back. My head is clouded, I have no direction or sense of purpose, I feel lost all the time, can’t concentrate and be in the moment and I just overall feel terrible almost everyday.
I’m working with my friends dad doing some demo/remodeling work right now. It’s alright. Sorta paying some of my bills but I know it’s not what I want to be doing. I know that much at least. I’m learning a hell of a lot which is cool and all but it’s just not the thing for me.
I just want some sort of guidance or direction onto where I should go or what to do. How do any of you do it? Does it just come natural to you? I struggle with that constantly. It just doesn’t work that way with me for some reason.
On top of all this my anxiety bullshit isn’t helping. I started taking Adderal to help me concentrate. My Dr recommended me trying it since I took an ADD/ADHD test and the results didn’t favor well for me. Meaning that it’s highly likely I have ADD/ADHD. It seems to be helping a bit but this new dose of 20mg seems to make my moods change pretty badly when it’s wearing off. Usually something small triggers it. I don’t know why it does that but it just happens. I’m seeing my Dr tomorrow so I’m hoping he’ll be able to help me out.
Ugh……I just don’t know what to do.
I wanna be your bestfriend, lover, biggest supporter, protector, your hero, a person you can be goofy with, talk to all day an night an never get bored. Be your teacher in video games, fighting buddy, cuddle buddy. And as the years go on I wanna add alot more things
I second that